Recently, I refound the direction to my salvation, and I feel His enlightenment more clearly, though still I could not understand, or even aware of most signs He's given.
We're born to learn, since He gave us the chance to gradually reveal the whole thing running behind the virtuality, the Truth. We're born to be loved, even when worst time comes, there's Light shining still—maybe wavering, but never dies out. We're born to be tainted, humanity needs salvation even from the very beginning of our history. Some ones say we are cursed, there are violence, death, and catastrophes, we are doomed, and abandoned. It's not Him who doomed us, He never abandoned us, either. We are doomed by our tainted humanity, we abandoned the chances He's providing to stand by His side.
We're tempted to use violence. We're blessed to have death. Catastrophes are tests and trials to our nature.