I might be complaining too much.
My dear training classmates, they are now my colleagues. I'm watching their chatting in IM. They may be the most excellent people I've met in recent years. Just, so brave, encouraging, lovely, and most important—honest.
They are also facing the same problems I mentioned. Unlike my anxiety and unpleasantness, they treat all the coming uncertainty rather actively.
And finally they remind me His words:
By the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread.